let's sleep til' the sun burns out

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love

In and out we go and hide from how we feel. I'm confused and I shouldn't be. These dreams are getting thicker in length. blank screens and tears fall, but when will OUR curtain finally fall?



As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there

As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there

Won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see it
So long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
So long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there

So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this

I'm beginning to get where everyones coming from when they tell me to pick up my frown. I can only bask in my own realizations. I love this heat, and this sunshine but this wind is making me feel unusual.

I can't help but wonder if i'm the reason for all my friends falling so short on hope...

i'm unusual

I see that I write really depressing things. This may or may not leave a bad impression on me. The new year. The new me.
I think its time I find my faith.

I have admitted I'm depressed and in the clinical sense way beyond when I should have started therapy and medication. I feel so bad for the poeple who put up with me daily. Especially the boy I love the most. I guess what i'm trying to say is thank you, and maybe you can squeeze out an "i'm sorry".

we're not here

something is missing.

I can tell everyone around me is getting tired of the whole catch and release method I'm working on.
Things have been getting better, but the confusion level in my life seems to deepen to the point where i cant see it.


I can tell you that i love you but i can't force you to believe it. you didn't call back and you never do. katy, you don't know what your talking about. i can always try to convince myself that he loves me as much as i love him but it wont ever stick like its supposed to. I don't like being in love and i don't think i ever will. things seem to worsen every week. all i wanted and want was you. I'm afraid. what if. what if, this never goes away?

i deserve to be happy. i deserve to be happy. i deserve to be happy, but everything else in this universe is proving that statement completely wrong. I guess its just one of those days, weeks, months...

i can't keep living like this. If i stay this way I will die.

The Honey & the Moon

If your not happy without me then this means something. It has to.
You've been away from me for a week exactly. i miss everything about you.
Your faces, your smiles, and that tiny body wrapping over a gigantic heart.

Remember when we first met
and everything was still a bet
in love's game
you would call; I'd call you back
and then I'd leave
a message
on your answering
machine

But right now
everything is turning blue,
and right now
the sun is trying to kill the moon,
and right now
I wish I could follow you
to the shores
of freedom,
where no one lives


I miss you. we miss you, and i cant stress enough how much i miss you. Love has become something i can't explain when it comes to you, and i'm taking that as a compliment. I need you right now, but I think you switching up the game and all is a wonderful idea. we're strong again. and as i concluded:If you weren't real i'd probably make you up.

for all the lovers who

I'ts been 5 days and I cannot control the tears

this is the worst new years of my life, but the best at the same time.
You have no idea how much i miss you.
COME HOME