we're not here

something is missing.

I can tell everyone around me is getting tired of the whole catch and release method I'm working on.
Things have been getting better, but the confusion level in my life seems to deepen to the point where i cant see it.


I can tell you that i love you but i can't force you to believe it. you didn't call back and you never do. katy, you don't know what your talking about. i can always try to convince myself that he loves me as much as i love him but it wont ever stick like its supposed to. I don't like being in love and i don't think i ever will. things seem to worsen every week. all i wanted and want was you. I'm afraid. what if. what if, this never goes away?

i deserve to be happy. i deserve to be happy. i deserve to be happy, but everything else in this universe is proving that statement completely wrong. I guess its just one of those days, weeks, months...

i can't keep living like this. If i stay this way I will die.